Friday, January 21, 2011
i hate it...why must i pretend to be happy when i'm not happy in front of other ppl and even my friends?why cant i cry when i'm sad in front of my friends?why must i pretend to be happy?if i keep on pretending,i scared i cant take it anymore...my heart cant take it..it's really so tired.....maybe it is not...maybe i don cos i don understand it...lol..really tired liao..don wan to pretend le..but can i do that or not?i really don know..my friends,i don think that u know when i was faking to be happy right?actually it's almost everyday cos saw him with some ppl and not me and treat me so coldly..i really cant take it anymore...pretend to be happy to hide my feelings?i scared i reaaly cant do it anymore...it's getting tired and tired..i just wan to be myself..don wan to fake anymore..i wan to cry when i'm sad,i don wan to pretend to be happy...sometimes,i really wanna to find u all,hug u and cry but i cant do that..cos i know u all wont do that right?haiz..it doesn matter anymore..it hurts..cant take it anymore...on monday what should i do?pretend again?so tired...no one can understand me even if understand me will also will misunderstand me...right?it know it...all is fake...everyone is using me...don need me will ignore me huh...need me will find for me..then when i need u all leh?u all don care..hahaha..great..gonna crazy soon..
♥BubblesJoey♥
