Friday, July 22, 2011
haizzz..irritated..damn stress..wanna to relax also cannot..haiz my art..can i get at least 70?or 65 or more?haizz..looking at the previous sce 4,theirs are better seh..even belinda and vinitha one also cant fight seh.. haiz..how can i make it better?everyday stay back-.-damn tired sia..no time to study..just now look at the calender,seeing prelims are getting nearer and nearer..wondering what should i do?haiz..i shouldn find any excuses to slack anymore..cant play anymore..must be serious..but haizzz..
haizz..i don care whether i can get at least 70 or not..i will work hard to try and get it..as long as i got work hard and do my very best..i think can le..haiz..actually,i was hoping that my n levels art canvas can put in the art gallery at the end of the end..but when teacher brought us to go on thurs,i was like haiz..my one was like shit like that..none of them i can compare to..mine was too lousy..haiz..don hope too much ba..if not later it didn happen,i will be so disappointed..haiz..what should i do?maths,i wanna get A1 for that..eng,i wanna get B3..sci,wanna get A2/B3..CH,i wanna get A1/A2..but haiz..i cant memorize well..haiz..like that can i get A1/A2?chinese,i wanna got B3/A2.. haiz..
ahhhh..i don know lah...damn stress..gonna put all the rubbish aside..YOU!!get lost..lost out of my mind..thanks..so that i can focus on my studies..
♥BubblesJoey♥
Friday, July 8, 2011
lol..having oral today...very nervous sia..in the morning 7,meet mr patrick to practice oral..then at 12+ meet him again to practice it again..and still got time so go art room..so nervous sia..so sacred abt convo sia..don know whether i know how to ans it or not,wondering will it be difficult or not and what will the examiners ask..so sacred sia..so i ask nazmeen,sakinah and yasmin to test me...-.-all so hard sia..-.-i only can ans some question..so worried seh..butbut when i waiting for my turn,i not nervous sia..=p hui min so nervous seh..hahaha..at first i thought i will be the one who is nervous and end up i'm not nervous and had to ask her not to be nervous...talk to her abt "rubbish"..=p then my turn,the convo is easier than what they all had ask me..-.-wth..then i go back to art room to paint my canvas,everyone ask me sia except the boys..=p ask me how?what question they ask?and blah blah blah..=p haha..lol
whatever..phy haiz..change teacher liao..no mood to study it..haiz..that teacher i really don know what he is talking abt sia..andand the lesson i really not interested sia..damn boring..i'm not biased seh just because of him torturing me..i'm not..cos i really don know what he's talking abt and he speaks so fast..i don even know what he's talking abt..haizzzz...hate it..feel like he's just wasting my time....eeeeeee...okay lol..if it so,i will prove to u that next time i will know how to do ur idiot questions..!!!i will make sure whatever u tell me to ans,i will get it CORRECT!!!idiot..damn it..i don need u..all i need is ms tan..don need u also can..she will do better than u..at least i can understand it...
lol..i don know what to say..okay..firstly,thanks for being there when i'm lost..being there for me,make me smile and blah blah blah..and it end up like that..i have think through..i helped u a lot..i think i repay u back le ba..i helped u a lot and bear all the sadness that u had gave me..i think that is enough...i should not help u anymore right?or else tell me,why should i?talk to u,u like don wan to listen..and whatever i had ask u,u just say en,yes,no and don know..treat u so good for what?to kill my heart when u had hurt me so deeply?i have no rights to say anything..i know it but i just don bear to see u being hurt..u understand it or not?why cant u understand me?okay fine..since u wan to get hurt right,that's ur problem..from now onwards,i'm not going to talk to u anymore,not going to ans u..whatever u do is ur problem..not mine what,right?why must i do so much for u?that's it..it should end now..everything between us should end..
love the way u lie..=p
♥BubblesJoey♥
Saturday, July 2, 2011
haiz..stress..has been slacking..arghh..what to do?wanna to learn ss but no mood wanna to do h/w also no mood...eeeee...irritating..N level oral coming haiz..
i shouldn have done that
i should have ignored it
like something i couldn see
like something i cant see
i shouldn have ever looked at u
i should have ran away
i should have acted like i didn hear it
like something i couldn hear
like something i cant hear
i shouldn have listened to my heart
u showed me love without words
u gave me ur love without words
u made me hold my breath
waiting for u
but u ran away like this
without a word love leaves me
without a word love throws me away
what should i say next
my only closed lips were surprised
coming without words
why does it hurt so much
why does it keep hurting
except for the fact that u arent here
though everything is the same
u showed me love without words
u gave me love without words
u made me hold my breath
waiting for u
but u went away like this
without a word love leaves me
without a word love throws me away
what should i say next
my only closed lips were surprised
without a word tears fall
without a word my heart breaks
without a word i wait for love
without a word love hurts me
i zone out
i become a fool
because i cry as i look up at the sky
without a word goodbyes find me
without a word goodbyes come to me
i couldn even prepare to send u away
i think my heart was surprised
without a word it came
without a word it went
without a word it left
like the fever before
i'll just hurt for a while
since only scars will be left in the end
shouldn have listened
shouldn have cared
shouldn have seen
shouldn have feel
shouldn have believed
shouldn trusted u so much
and being hurt by u
i always thought that u are the most important..
i was wrong..
someone is more than u?maybe ba..
or else how could i bear to see u with her seeing her with u so sweet..
or maybe i love u too much and i let u go..
since she love u too..
she even show off to me leyy..
what u know?
u just know how to be cool and that's it..
only know how to hurt me and saying rubbish...
hurt me only..and misunderstand me only..
i never except that it would be so boring when i never see u..
not fun,not funny,no sweet talk,no rubbish,no laughter,no everything..
wth is this?why have it been like this?it shouldn be like this..i shouldn get used to it with the days with u..i shouldn rely not u..i shouldn be acting like this...idiot..
♥BubblesJoey♥
