why whenever i see u,my heart will start to aching,start to pain,start to get hurt?why is it so?and the pain is damn pain..why is it so?why is this so hurt?how deep had u hurt me?why only u?what hurts the most?it is the love..

How do I say Goodbye to someone I never really had? Why do my tears fall so endlessly for someone who was never really mine? Why is it I miss someone I was never really with? And why do I love someone whose love was never really mine.....

我恨你。
我恨你欺骗我
我恨你让不知所措
我恨你让我爱上你
我恨你让我这么痛苦
我恨你让我失去了怎么多
我恨你把我当作笨蛋
我恨你让我为你哭
我恨你让我为你吃醋
我恨你让我怕了你
我恨你让我为你做的那么多的蠢事
我恨你

为什么？让你吃醋我会那么累？
为什么？那些感觉都慢慢的消失了呢？
为什么？我再也感受不到这些感觉了呢？
为什么？当我再也感受不到的时候，我会那么怕？
为什么？明明你在我的身边，我却觉得你离我好远喔？
为什么？我们变得那么陌生？
为什么？我以前干问你，现在我不干了呢？
为什么?我那么没有用？
为什么？以前，我们那么熟，现在那么陌生？
为什么？会这样？
为什么？

我们之间发生了什么事？
为什么我不知道？
为什么?我什么都不知道？
你为什么那么讨厌？
你为什么那么烦？
你为什么要烦我？
你为什么要让我爱上你？
你为什么要对我冷冷淡淡呢？
你为什么要让我对你这么心寒？
你为什么要让我对你这么失望？
你为什么要这么做嘛？

明明很想忘了你，不再理你，不再跟你说话，可是为什么我做不到？
我真的真的好害怕失去你啊。
为什么？你可以让我放弃所有的人？
为什么？放弃了他们，我不觉得可惜？
为什么？我会这么做？
为什么？只有对你才有这种感觉？
为什么？ 你伤害我比其他人还要痛？
难道，那些我所‘爱’过的人，不算真的爱吗？
或许是单纯的喜欢吧？不是真的爱。
可是为什么只有你？我才会这样？
为什么？我会爱上你？
为什么？你可以让我爱你那么深？
为什么？我对你有爱有恨呢？

you taught me so many things..
u taught me how to love..
u taught me how to hate u..
but u never taught me how to stop loving u..
can u next time teach me how to stop loving u?
it's terrible to love u..especially a person that always lies..really don know which words of urs can believe
i afraid of believing u..i afraid of falling into the trap u had created..
u know what?at first,i don know why i'm ignoring u..but now i know it..it is because silence is a girl's loudest cry..you'll always know,she is deeply hurt if she is ignoring you..
The day you learn to hold your tears back, is the day you learn how to hate
Love is so strange..
sometimes it becomes reason to live life..!!
and sometimes it becomes reason to leave life.. ..??

有一个人说我爱上你了。因为跟你在一起，我感到很开心也会感到很伤心，心都碎了。从来没有这种感觉，为什么在你的身边真么开心，当我看到你跟她在一起，有说有笑，我的心怎么那么痛嘛？痛到不知道该怎么办呢。以前，我们有话说。现在呢？怎么我们没有话说了？不管多靠近，多没有话说。发生了什么事？为什么你跟其他的人有那么多话说，而对我就没有话说？你为什么要折磨我？你怎么那么烦嘛？

imy

为什么每一次在你的面前，我总会笨手笨脚的？
每次都让你看笑话。-.-

why u so irritating?since u say that,u should let everything back to normal and not letting me to clear all ur rubbish that u have made..let my life back to normal,back to without knowing u..i really don know how to clear ur rubbish..so pls before u leave and give my life back to normal,pls clear all ur rubbish and explain all the rubbish to all the ppl u have made..bcos of u,my life was like rubbish sia..u give me all the rubbish..i tried clear it but i cant..all i could say is u pro,i cant do anything..u are too smart,till i don even know what to do with u..all i could do is ask u to stop all the nonsense..and give me back whatever i used to have...don take them when u leave me..u pro,okay?let that person think that i have caused it and leave me far far away..bcos of u,that person don wan to talk to me,ignore me..u pro..letting that person go near u..now then i know..u are so scary..u are so clever setting this trap to make me fall in..i'm a loser,cant fight back..so pls let me go,give me all the things that i used to have back..i wan everything to be the same as before i know u...

我错了，我以为你会告诉我，可是你并没有。
我以为你很聪明，其实你并不聪明，反而很笨。
每个人都知道的事情，你都不知道！
我累了，为你做了那么多，怎么你却不知道？
我尽力让你看到我的努力，可是怎么我觉得我好像在浪费时间似的。
算了，是时候离开你了。
可是要离开你，我的心怎么那么痛嘛？

我想是时候忘记你了。
我想你应该不需要我了吧。
我不想再当笨蛋了。
我好累，不玩了。
反正一开始就是个游戏嘛，是我太认真了，是我太笨了，是我玩不起，是我错了，把一切的一切都当真了。我真笨，为什么会把他的 ‘垃圾’ 当真呢？明明知道一切都是假的。
我真的没有办法再应付你了。
再见

ahhhh...damn crazy seh me...memorise math till my brain crack..yesterday from 3 or 4+ started studying math sec 1 to 3 tb until 6+ then rest,watch tv to rest,eat and then 7+ going to 8 studying sec4 tb,file and some notes..until 8+ going to 9..after studying,feel like gonna faintz sehh...don know why..and like my brain cant go in any formula or notes sia..wth..then 10 watch tv then when wanna to study again,take tb out,look at it,feel like vomiting sehh..damn it..today also..wake up,feel like fainting sehh..cant take it..and force myself to study..roughly2 look at it and memorise it..then went to sch..still wanna faintz..haizz..luckily when doing math,never wanna to vomit..=p haha..or else die sia..haiz...damn stress in doing paper 1 seh..so hard sia..crack my brain again-.-almost cant finish it =p left one minute sia..omg..cant believe it..paper 2 is easier..hope that i could get good results =p..lol..i studied so much sehh..i don wan all my efforts to be in vain wor..or else i really gonna faintz sehh..haha..lol

haizz..我什么时候学会了逞强？不管多困难都会撑住。我什么时候变成这样的？这不是我。。不是。。


我真笨，相信你，不管是真的或假的，我都相信你。还帮你欺骗自己。明明知道了，为什么还要装作不知道呢？为什么？为什么是她？你知道明年不会再看到她了，会难过，会伤心，你为她怎么做了那么多？为什么？好多好多。。算了，不要了，你离我远远的，不再相信你了。不是说了吗？你的话只有功课可以相信，其他的，全都是垃圾。。可是为什么，我一直都相信你的垃圾呢？什么嘛？真的不知道该怎么对你，怎么应付你。。你真的好麻烦。eeee..how should i deal with u?idiot..我很不想离开你啊，可是如果不离开你，我会很痛苦。我很舍不得你，好想跟你。

ahhhh...what are u doing? u know what are u doing or not? leave me far far away...everything i dare to take the risk...but for this i don dare..it's too risky..i don wan..after seeing all the examples around me,i don dare..why must u change me? influence me? made me like don know what to say.. haizzz... arghh.. what should i do? why are u so scary? why am i afraid of u? last time i'm not afraid of u but why now i am? why am i avoiding u? act as if i didn saw u..and act as if i didn hear anything.. act as nothing happen..

i not purposely go there when u are lying on the chair is just because i wanna to avoid it..i didn notice it..when i go there then saw u lying on the chair...i didn see anything that shouldn be seen leh but everyone who saw it laughing-.- don even know what they laughing at..but that's was damn ..... ididot...shouldn have stop at there...and i don even know why u sitting at there..so weird..eeeee..

so shocking seh...online in fb,suddenly saw u wanna add me as friend..so weird sia..but damn scary sia...why so sudden wanna add me?don get it..butbut that's what i wanted =p haha...oops!!what did i say?but why u add me when i have decided to ignore u?it's so the wrong timing lol..arghh..everytime u always like de lol..gonna crazy..

我错了吗？如果是的话，对不起，我以后再也不会烦你了，不再和你吵架了。


什么时候我开始注意到你？
什么时候我开始想你？
什么时候我开始需要你？
什么时候我开始在乎你？你的感受？
什么时候我开始在乎你的想法？
什么时候我开始吃你的醋？
什么时候我开始在乎你跟谁在一起？
什么时候我开始为你而哭？
什么时候我开始学会了假装？
什么时候我开始欺骗自己？
什么时候你开始在我的心里？
什么时候你开始便得这么重要？
什么时候我学会了隐瞒自己的感受？

为什么我要自己骗自己？
明明知道你只是假情假意的。。为什么还要一头寨进去呢？
为什么要这么笨呢？我到底是在做什么嘛？

treated u as my friend,hope i will be there whenever u need me..hope that u will tell me why u sad or anything..but i cant..u rather keep it to urself than telling me..bcos of someone idiot,it spoil everything..i tried to mend everything but why can u trust me?i tried it before but u don know abt it..i tried a lot of times..u didn see it or hear it..what u wanna me to do?whatever i told u is true how could u treat it as rubbish?or maybe is u didn see it..butbut how do u know me to do?straight away kill him and that idiot?i cant..arghh..what had happen?since when we become like that?seeing each other and got nothing to say..arghh...that idiot spoil everything..what should i do?ehh,don ignore me lah..i also need u de leyy..don leave me..i don wan it to happen..pls stay in my life..at least for secondary sch life lah..u stayed in my pri sch life..since u stayed once in my secondary sch life,u should continue stay...after next year i will let u go..ehh...don leave me lah..u play also don wan to play with me..arghh..that idiot..i wonder how i know him de..spoil my life..making trouble to my life only..eh,i don wan to find another replacement for u leyy cos that one cant be as fun as u are..=p ehh,pls don leave me,don ignore me..i wanted to keep my promise to u but i don know how..or else u teach me lah..i really don wan to end our friendship..why cant u give me a chance?i also don know why i tell u that idiot thing is a rumor...someone tell me to say that to u..only that one is someone tell me to tell u de..the rest is really my true words leyy...i miss last year damn much cos without that idiot,no one would say that..how i wish that i didn have known him..maybe without him,it would be better..arghh but how?it's a fate..i know everyone one day will leave me..but can u don leave me that fast?i really don know what to do sehh..no one will be like u treating me like this..whenever i sad,u will be there making me laugh..in front of u,i can be myself..telling u everything..i know last time i too harsh le..making u don know what to do..giving u all the stress..cos of that idiot lah..making me so stress and we even had an argument or cold war for a few days..but i don wan it to happen seh..i finding all the lame excuses to remain as friend..feel like so stupid..but if doing all that can save everything,i will do that as it is worth...if i know this year would be like this,last year i will treasure it more than i did..if i know he will be normal and not being like last yer to me,i will explain to him..if last year i told him that it wasnt true,maybe this year,it wont be like this...

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