Monday, October 24, 2011
朋友到底是什么？不是应该互相帮助吗？不是应该相信对方吗？不是伤心难过的时候，朋友都会在身边吗？不是看到自己的朋友被欺负的时候，应该站出来帮她/他吗？不是吗？还是这些都只是我自己认为的？难道朋友就是不理对方？就是不信任对方？就只会幸灾乐祸？还是看到朋友被欺负，只会在那里笑？还是一起欺负朋友？还是在伤口上沙盐？如果不是的话，为什么我的朋友都是这样的？为什么？我真的真的用我的真心对待她们，真心真意的。别人都看得出，可是为什么她们看不出？别人看到了都说我笨对她们这么好做什么？我说我也不知道，朋友不是这样的吗？她们说可是她对你这样值得吗？我听了都不知道该这么回答。到底什么是朋友？
♥BubblesJoey♥
Sunday, October 16, 2011
ahhh...gonna crazy soon..haix..since when i became so irresponsible de?haix..i hate it..i hate to become like this but i really don have choice sia...eh,my "friend" leh..u wan me to say it,how am i gonna face her? why must u all make me feel so guilty as if i was not serious..as if i wan just pulling her leg..i was serious but why do u wanna make me like a fool?if u all don let,why didn u all tell me?why u all tell me after i got it?u all only know how to make my life so difficult..u all don care how i feel...by making me like this,in future,she wont dare to ask me for it..u all didn think abt it....why always i think i think?why must i always think for the future?u all had make my life so difficult..it was hard to say that u all know that or not?rejection is always so hard why must u all always wan me to reject something that i didn wanna to reject?i admitted that i regret abt it...i really regret but what can i do?if i didn reject,u all will say this and that..what can i do?whatever i can do,i do alr but it got no use..if i don need to reject it,i can work with my friend le..there really got a lot of ppl that i know working at there leyy..but why only me cant work at there =( ahhhh....i hate it mann..what is this?i got to hide all my feelings,all my thinking in order not to hurt u all..what is this?why only in front of one person i can be myself?why not u all?haix..why must u all make me be like this? i hate it..i don wan..i don wan..haix...
u idiot..why must u treat me like a fool?is it very fun?fun in tricking me fun of making me like a fool?fun of seeing me like a fool?why do i listen to ur words?why do i remember all ur words and actions?and u forgot everything..what is this?why am i so stupid to remember it?why i am i so stupid to listen to u?why am i so stupid to believe whatever u said?why am i so stupid to believe u even if i know whatever u say or do are lying?why do i still choose to believe it?why do i still hope that u are not lying?but now i really cant do that anymore..i'm tired...why these few days got so many problems?only a few days and got so many things to happen?what is this?why do i have to think so much?why i always think so much?so many things had happen make me cant sleep sia..wth..why i got so many things to trouble?i'm really tired..damn tired le..i wanna do nothing..i wanna go sch..i don wan work le..whatever chances i got,have gone..okay?it has gone..i left nothing le..damn pathetic..yea,i know..but i really cant do anything..really...haix...i'm really damn tired le..why got so many problems de?can don have problems or not?i really cant take it le...
♥BubblesJoey♥
Thursday, October 6, 2011
Haix..it's last day of school..n level finished..no school anymore..how boring days will it be?staying at home..yawn..should i stay at home or should i go out to work?it seems that everyone is working..=( but if i wan to work,what can i be?hmmm...tue,i purposely asked my father..eh,the newspaper jobs,none of them are for me right?then he say got..hmmm..wait ah..i check..ahhh...found one..cleaner or wash disher.. -.- wth...i study so many years le wan me to go do all these jobs?what is these? at least a assistance or waiter or bubbletea mah..haix..jobs?interview? what is interview?how to interview?need to write what?how to say?need to do what?i all don know sehh...what is this?now i just feel like going to school..
Haix...last day of school le..didn expect still can see u at mac after school...but why did i see u,my heart will break?u not with any girls what..why is this like that?why all the memory came back?why?why did it came back?and miss it so much?why do i remember everything that u say and do?and whereas u forget everything about it..if it is so,why did i remember it?but how could i forget about it?why everytime i see u,i must act as if every irritating to see u?which is actually not?why is it so?damn it..all the stupid rubbish things all came back..i hate it...u cheater,u liar...u too pro le..i cant win u..u can play it too well le..but i cant..i too lousy le..i can play but after a while,i will lose..it's always like that...haix...didn i know it very well that it is just a game not true...but why did i keep on telling myself maybe it's true?even a stupid person or an idiot also don believe it..why did i go and believe it?hmmmm...got so many holidays,i should think why is it so...what happen..why like that...ahhhhhh..hate u so much..u liar u cheater...maybe it's time to let go?maybe ba...hmmm..so tired..for what sehh...hold on for what?it only will be hurt...u talk more to other ppl than to me..u great..u are so great..thankyou for hurting me...bye!!!!
♥BubblesJoey♥
