Sunday, October 16, 2011
ahhh...gonna crazy soon..haix..since when i became so irresponsible de?haix..i hate it..i hate to become like this but i really don have choice sia...eh,my "friend" leh..u wan me to say it,how am i gonna face her? why must u all make me feel so guilty as if i was not serious..as if i wan just pulling her leg..i was serious but why do u wanna make me like a fool?if u all don let,why didn u all tell me?why u all tell me after i got it?u all only know how to make my life so difficult..u all don care how i feel...by making me like this,in future,she wont dare to ask me for it..u all didn think abt it....why always i think i think?why must i always think for the future?u all had make my life so difficult..it was hard to say that u all know that or not?rejection is always so hard why must u all always wan me to reject something that i didn wanna to reject?i admitted that i regret abt it...i really regret but what can i do?if i didn reject,u all will say this and that..what can i do?whatever i can do,i do alr but it got no use..if i don need to reject it,i can work with my friend le..there really got a lot of ppl that i know working at there leyy..but why only me cant work at there =( ahhhh....i hate it mann..what is this?i got to hide all my feelings,all my thinking in order not to hurt u all..what is this?why only in front of one person i can be myself?why not u all?haix..why must u all make me be like this? i hate it..i don wan..i don wan..haix...
u idiot..why must u treat me like a fool?is it very fun?fun in tricking me fun of making me like a fool?fun of seeing me like a fool?why do i listen to ur words?why do i remember all ur words and actions?and u forgot everything..what is this?why am i so stupid to remember it?why i am i so stupid to listen to u?why am i so stupid to believe whatever u said?why am i so stupid to believe u even if i know whatever u say or do are lying?why do i still choose to believe it?why do i still hope that u are not lying?but now i really cant do that anymore..i'm tired...why these few days got so many problems?only a few days and got so many things to happen?what is this?why do i have to think so much?why i always think so much?so many things had happen make me cant sleep sia..wth..why i got so many things to trouble?i'm really tired..damn tired le..i wanna do nothing..i wanna go sch..i don wan work le..whatever chances i got,have gone..okay?it has gone..i left nothing le..damn pathetic..yea,i know..but i really cant do anything..really...haix...i'm really damn tired le..why got so many problems de?can don have problems or not?i really cant take it le...
♥BubblesJoey♥
