Saturday, July 28, 2012
Haix..what have i been doing?why am i slacking sooo much?my math,sci and eng are getting from bad to worse...what should i do?i need tuition but i don know how to say to my mama lehh..haix..how to say leh???who can teach me?who can tell me what to say for it?
haix...why in love,am i always the one who suffer the most?why always am i the one who is being rejected?why soo many pp had bf while i haven even had one before?why am i always the one who keep on falling in love with the wrong ppl?i thought last year,i met the right one,the one who really love me,the one who really cares abt me,the one who always stood up for me but.....i was wrong...he's a faker,a liar,a cheater,a pretender,a jerk!!!
He told me he love me,he did a lot of things for me,said the sweetest words,always stood up for me..i know it is all fake but i don know why in the end i believed him and fell in love with him...i know it shouldn happen but i saw in his eyes,there's really me and only me...in front of him,i tried to show him the best of me but end up only show the silly me..haix..in front of him,i always couldn do my best..don know why..why last year we two are so close?and this year we are like a stranger?what happen to us?i thought that person gone,will be better but i was wrong...you missed her more,ur heart only got her,your eyes only have her,ur minds too...there's no me..why is it so?i don know why you are sooo important to me?everyone can see that you are just playing with me and i know that but just that you know what?i'm a fool,i believe you did love me,it just that don know why the feeling has gone...what happen to you?everyone knows abt us and yet..why am i such a fool to believe that one day,you will love me?one day you will regret that why didn love me at that time?one day you will really love me...why am i cheating myself that one day you really will love me?what am i hoping?why am i waiting for you?where you has alr gone..you don need me,do you?i tried to catch ur attention but...why am i sooo tried?why my heart keep on breaking?why am i so tired?why even trying to like make you jealous also feel hurt and tired?is it because i know it's useless?why am i always crying because of you?why with ur one word,my heart hurts a lot?do you think i will be happy with him?do you know that i only wan to be with you?do you know that no one will be better than you expect one person-prince charming?why now we have nothing to say,nothing to talk to,we only can text?why you didn talk to me?i'm so tired...they asked me to forget you,you are not worth...i know that but what to do?i tried to forget but i really really don know why i cant?everytime i try,there's always something that tell me don forget...i cried,you knew,you texted and asked...you told everyone abt it,but why are you sad or angry??i don understand...seriously don understand...why are you so evil?why must let me love you and then you left me there and walked away,ignore me...why you looked at me whenever tcher say me or say abt me and why always i see you looking at my direction?why is it so hurtful to see that?why it seems that our roles had switched?i don wan it to be like that...don wan...Can you love me?Can you talk to me like last year?Can yo don leave me anymore?Can you always be there whenever i need you?I really love you a lot a lot...pls....don let me keep on thinking that i am wrong...don show me that i love you is wrong and don show me that i don love you is also wrong...
♥BubblesJoey♥
