Saturday, February 2, 2013
This is who i am. Sometimes, i'm careless, i'm silly, i'm weird. In front of strangers, i'm a good and quiet girl (ppl told me de). =p hahaha..In front of my friends, i'm crazy, i'm playful? I'm fun, funny maybe?naughty,evil?hahahaha..=p I could be caring too. It depends who are you to me! I guess all my friends don really know me well ba? Cos i didn tell or showed everything. Fear of rejection and lots! That's the reason why I don't reject friends whenever they ask for help. Would always help. Never really hate ppl even if they treat me bad. If those evil ppl treat me good, i would also treat them good. Actually did hate one person cos of his irritating reaction-.-junior only wanna conquer senior?=p hahahaha..jk! well didn't really biased against him but it's because he likes arguing with me-.-" hate it!That's why didn really wanna talk to him,see him,feel like killing him,blood boils!Even hearing his voice can kill me!Whatever he talks to me, i would argue and make sure i win!When i hate ppl, i won't do what they said!I would do the opposite! Yea, i'm childish but i could be mature too but i don't wan cos it seemed too boring =p ahhahaha..
Hmmm...who am i actually?I don like to be independent,i like to depend on others especially my friends and idiot! =p Independent!!What is that?Everything got to do yourself,without having other ppl help?lonely?alone?In front of all my friends,i think i'm different. I gave them a different me. Have silly, blur, dumb, stupid, pro, clever, fun, flirty, evil, have lots of guys friends...Well,having guys friends are just to get to know more abt them. At the age of 16,i felt that i grew up a lot. I learnt not to bother my parents with all the nonsense stuffs. I used my own money to get the things i need. First time i didn ask parents abt any new things. I called stranger no. and asked for tuition but in the end,i felt that the tuition wa so useless. I could depend on myself lor, i don need tuition at all!! I learnt to solve problem myself. I have high expectation for myself, i would make sure that i give my very best and until i'm satisfy with it. For example,being sabo by idiot for recording mt oral reading. I recorded umpteen times and making sure that it's perfect and there's no error in it,no nonsense noises and no error of reading wrong words. But unfortunately, i didn really gave my best for ch during o lvl. I didn studied well enough to get good grades. Haix...
Hmmm..Mature!!Haix..why everyone wants me to be mature? Being mature is so boring,not fun at all! I can be mature but why? I really really feel that being childish is so much more fun lor! haix! Don get it! Hmmm..I'm 17 alr!!wah cant believe it!so fast jiu 17 liao-.-"haix!!Suddenly feel like i should try anything i wanted to do when i'm young such as try being a rocker,pretend to be a famous actor or singer,dress like a boy =p ahhahaha..learn poping,dancing and piano. ahhaha. all these are what i wanted to do now lehh =p don know what come i go this mind set to do all these thing ahhahaha..Don wish to regret on anything!I want to do what i could and i wanted.
Interested in relationship,wanted to know how it is like,what the feeling. Haix has been trying to find one true one but haix. Met one but it was all fake. I swear i saw it. I saw his eyes,has me,his heart only me but then....haix!thought wai biao bu zhong yao,bu then all boys only saw wai biao. haix..i don care abt wai biao,only care abt his talent,his personality!
I don wan anyone who to see me clearly,don know someone who knows me clearly! I don like it. Unless is they discover it but i guess it's hard =p ahhaha..i don like to talk much, don like to caught someone attention such as i injure myself and went to tell everyone. siao ah like that -.-"why must let everyone know abt it leh?if they really concern abt you,they would saw it and ask.Haix..mixed feelings ahh...
♥BubblesJoey♥
